psalm 139:15 "you watched me as i was being formed in utter seclusion, as i was woven together in the darkness of the womb." god knew me before i started to walk before i started to talk he knew me before i took my first breath into my physical life. he knew me at my purest state and watched me put it off with my conduct choosing deceitful lusts and life styles over him growing and molding myself in it as i grew older and marinated in it letting it define who i was and who i was going to be. when i read 2 corinthians 11:3 "but i am afraid that just as eve was deceived by the serpents cunning, your minds may some how be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to christ."i was ashamed to say that that verse is exactly what i did, i led myself away from him just as eve had done and i lived burning in my sin consistently and i knew if i stayed in it any longer it would be the end of any hope. in genesis 6:3 "then the lord said, "my spirit will not put up with humans for such a long time, for they are only mortal flesh. in the future, their normal lifespan will be no more than 120 years." i don't want to be one of those people that party there whole life and live in sinful deceitful desires and before i die give my life to christ i don't want to risk loosing that relationship with my jesus. coming back around and choosing christ is not easy for me, i have felt rejection from friends and family, i have let go a lot of old habits and it feels at times that i have lost everything... but now i see that i have, i have lost all my fleshly sinful desires to let the lord fill me with his true desires for my life. and i have never had more of a peace threw the pain of detachment and loss, and i have ultimately gained truth and felt a overwhelming love threw desperate times. my god has shown me forgiveness, in romans 6:6 "for we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaved to sin."
application: continue to be a sponge for my god, having an open heart and being aware of my past knowing and reminding myself that god has much more for me and for all his people if they choose him and the relationship with him is the ultimate reward and going back to old habits and deceitful desires is NEVER worth it.
a verse that encourages me.... Philemon 1:15 "for perhaps he departed for a while for this purpose, that you might receive him forever."
a verse that encourages me.... Philemon 1:15 "for perhaps he departed for a while for this purpose, that you might receive him forever."
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