luke 17:9

Luke 17:9 “does he thank that servant because he did the things that were commanded him? I think not”

Since I have learned and marinated in gods words I have learned a lot about serving. I used to serve for a reward for myself. I sold drugs to kids for there money convinced people that speed would make them skinny or weed would make them feel good and make everything in life easy and make food taste better and brings peace not because I cared about them but because I cared about how much money they would give me in return. I was very self oriented and animalistic everything was about how it could benefit me and my situation and my situation was always more important. i  Served for myself and that’s how I taught myself how to survive how to get what I wanted. Now its almost like I piece of me has been ripped out and changed seeing things with a new set of eyes. If there is anything I have learned about serving its that when I do it for myself it gets the most harmful not only to the people I am serving but the guilt that overwhelms my heart. One of the most important things about serving to me and something that I am learning to follow is that God has the right to expect continual obedience to his will and continual adherence to every command he gives me. When I think about serving others do I do it out of obedience and adherence to every command he gives me? or do I do it when it’s necessary for my timing not gods? ? And if I am doing it necessary for my timing how can that possibly be beneficial to gods will for I am just sin seaking flesh? Am I also doing it to fill that guilt in my heart from my old ways of serving and if I am shouldn’t I start to recinize that and give that straight to god because even then im serving myself and my guilt even though I love seeing people and happy and I love feeling that I can bring someone comfort and relate to them but is that me or god? God did the altamit serving by dieing on the cross so there is nothing I can do to possibly take away my guilt but in romans 8:28 it clearly states “and we know that all things work together for good to those who love god, to those who are the called according to his purpose.” So my prayer and my application is to remind myself why I serve every time I am in the act of serving remind myself its because I love my god and his people and I am doing out of obedience and adherence to his commands because I know he wont lead me a stray because he is the Altamont server who died for  me because he loved me and I will choose to follow him even though I know no matter how much I serve will never top what he has done for his people. And no matter how much I serve it wil not change my past and I will strive to give god my past and trust in his salvation that it will be used to his glory.