isaiah 55:7

Isaiah 55:7 “let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the lord, and he will have mercy on him; and to our god, for he will abundantly pardon.”

I am wicked and unrighteous or better put my flesh is wicked and unrighteous. When I am not putting God first in things I think or say I find myself only thinking wicked and unrighteous things. I tend to think just because I do my devotions or ask God to lead me closer to Him, He will be in everything I do through out my days. I fail to remember that I need to do my part and make Him my everything, in everything, for He is everything, well everything good that I strive to be closer to. In Mathew 6:33 it says “but seek first the kingdom of god and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” This means to me not to just seek for the Lord to change the things I hate in myself. I don’t want to be changed at the right moment in time to my satisfaction but in everything thing I do before I do anything or make a decision. I remember the very first time I let God direct my life and started to die to myself. The phone call to my grandpa later leading to a phone call to Pastor Mike hearing unexpectedly that I was going to be on a plane to Montana in less then 2 weeks leaving behind the parties, school, sinful pleasures and lay it all before the Lord to grow with the Lord and fall in love. Having no idea what to expect. Psalm 118:5 “from my distress I called upon the Lord; the lord answered me and set me in a large place.” I thought that laying down my physical fleshly life around me would be the hard part, but I was wrong. I have learned that dying to self is an everyday thing. Dissecting not just the things I did and said but also the things I thought, the people I judged and the manifestation behind the actions I made. These are all things I continue to battle. Putting this aside I find myself falling to my knees in amazement because the Lord answered prayer I thought weren’t possible to answer. I prayed to God that He would take me out of my sinful life and bring me closer to Him. I prayed that I would be able to give up to trying to find happiness through myself. I prayed that my life would be His. While praying all these things, I had no idea that only two weeks later I would be at Potters Field Ranch. Pslam 119:67-68 “before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word. You are good, and do good; teach me your statutes.” This is my prayer to my God everyday of my life to never forget the miracle he did in my life by bringing me where I am today. And strive to be closer to him and let him forgive me for my sins and ask him to heal me from my guilt. 1 john 3:5 “and you know that he was manifested to take away our sins, and in him there is no sin.”

Application : John 1:19 “if we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” Put jesus first in everything I do not just what’s appealing to me to be apart of. Repent my sins and be a vassal for god. Marinate in his word daily and follow the true leader of all righteousness and all absentness of wickedness.